Friggin' taggin' me... *goes Napoleon* Gosh!!

Here goes anyway:

10 things you like:

1. cool people, like friends should be
2. raspberries
3. music
4. cookies!!
5. video games
6. drawing
7. anime/manga
8. bellybuttons
9. aminals. They're just so cute and deadly!
10. fweeeeeee cooking
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3 things that make you happy:

1. my niece
2. Cleo-ness and all my comrades
3. anything inspiring
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10 things that you hate:

1. My. Mother's. Husband.
2. grown-ups. Blegh.
3. The kids at my school
4. anyone who's all "OMFG Myspace!11!!" Die.
5. everyone who's ever crossed me
6. my brother's addiction to BET. *sigh*
7. paparazzi... what?
8. being denied anime
9. ADVENT CHILDREN BEING DELAYED FOR ANOTHER YEAR!!!! GAWD!!! >.<
10. all the time I've wasted these past few years
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3 facts about your name:

1. Uh... when I had to write about in elementary school, I always described it as 'French Jamaican'...uh, yeeeaaah...
2. almost no one can spell it correctly (which I never understood, really)
3. my brother still says it funny... even though I've known him for all his life...
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5 facts about yourself:

1. I'm reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll lllllllly lazy
2. It takes little to make me happy
3. It takes little to make me mad
4. I've been known to break statues over heads when deprived of Pop-Tarts (no, seriously)
5. I'm embarrassed and disliked easily
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2 things you expect (at least for now):

1. not to get much done XD
2. not to get my dvds tomorrow. ;_; I want my Yuyu Saiyuki NOW!!!
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4 random thoughts:

1. ...why did they let Martha Stewart out of prison? Why?!
2. I wish we had more water here...
3. Ah crap I have muffins to bake
4. ...my brother really needs to shut up

>.> I'm not sure how much partying will get done, but whoooo! I'm one today!!!

But what's there to celebrate? I've been a lazy ass and have made little effort to even keep in touch with those I've talked with here ('cept for Cleo). I let my ego get to me for work that's only so-so, and let myself be distracted by people I won't bring myself to forgive.

Though I did find out just how much of a bitch I am. Heh heh.

But really, no guy is worth all the time I could have spent creating- especially not guys who try to change who you are, twist around your words until you become dependant on them, have no testicular fortitude, or completely throw away your concern even after years of dedicated friendship.

Eh but what else can I expect from kids around here? At least this is my senior year and I'll never have to see them again. ...Of course how can I sound eager when I'm sure to be doing nothing after graduation... lol I love being such a disappointment to my parents!

*sigh* Man it can be exhausting to be so freakin' lazy. I suppose there could be something wrong, though, since I surprised even myself with my apathy... I can at least say I tried to change (as much as I hate it), I tried to care... and look where it got me. They didn't need me, and I measured my worth by how others wanted me.

...I think in the end, I'm the one who really screwed up the idea of friendship... I could write all about the trials of it, but for me, there was only failure.

If I had two things not to regret and feel....thankful for, they would be that I have a healthy, happy, and crazy niece, and that Cleo was there for me and I for her whenever it was needed. I hope I was helpful... I was once told by a precious friend that a 'faceless' friend could be most helpful.

...Wow, I'm out of things to say already?

(Good going, Trayne, nice way to depress those that bothered to read this.)

*ahem* I don't think I met any of the goals I had wanted to do last year... namely update my Digimon fics and start my Gundam Wing one, and there were tons of pictures never drawn (or finished). I guess for now I need to practice incorporating my own drawing style digitally, as I'm sure there's a simple way of coloring that I'm just not getting, and start working consistently. Because I need money. I believe if I had a constant supply of music, manga, and anime, I'd be set for life. Heh.

And to whom should I give thanks? Everyone who took the time to look at my gallery and say something, whether it was a 5-minute critique or a 2-second comment. Really, I know I'm no where near great, but I've already done better than many. And of course to everyone who inspired me. I give thanks. To YOU.

Nyah nyah... Okay, so here's some snippets of interesting dreams I've been having lately.

Actually my latest one was about a school shooting... uh, no worries there! There was way too many people involved, and the kids at my school are both too smart and too stupid to do something like that.

Another one involved me walking down my road with a bunch of friends I haven't really talked to in a couple of years. We were all supposed to be walking in a certain order because we were headed to training of some osrt (or were running away from someone), but Atem (aka Yami Yugi) being his silly self was riding all over the place on his horse summoning Slifer and scaring the crap outta everyone. It was weird I tell you... I made no attempt to glomp him.

I also had a cool YYH one that was like I was watching an episode. I was in my brother's room and all happy and such watching it while he was asleep on the floor, then he woke up in time to cut the TV off just as thE episode was ending! Really, the nerve! Sleeping through YYH and then daring to cut thE TV off! Plus I woke up before I could get to my room to finish watching it...

Erm, anyway, the episode was about Kurama, who had finished planning... something, then went somewhere for a romantic evening with his lady. Yeeeeeah... Actually I wasn't too surprised since now that I've been waking up reeeal early on Sat. mornings to watch what I can of the 3 Kings Saga I've gone ahead and finished one part of a YYH fic I started planning waaaaay back. So anyway, there was his girlfriend in all her glory, and I was like "OMg teh s3x!!!" lol I mean she had a certain aura of sex appeal that I had never even considered for her. Kurama began to tell her of what he had planned, and it involved something about them being able to turn into their respective demon forms. This part included a very cool flashback of Kurama in Youko form and she in her own demon form in the Makai (which I MUST draw someday). Kurama's voiceover was saying something about when they were together back then, they may have been in love.

I'm guessing this meant that they shared some sort of...something, though the scene was very suggestive, if you catch my drift... They weren't doing anything, jeez! ...but I can't say clothes were involved... >.> *coughcough* Anyway, chick grew mad (I'm not revealing her name here since I'll most likely talk about this story in a later journal or deviation) and said that she "didn't want to fight anymore" and ran off, transforming into a cat along the way and eventually running into Hiei- who went all Shinobi on her O.o.... Um, I guess that meant that Youko and she fought as much as they..."did the deed"...

The last interesting dream I had was... TMNT!! ...Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles centered, for those of you who aren't as much of a nerd as I am. I was kunoichi turtle, if you will, who was supposed to be inflitrating Shredder's base which looked suspiciously like my mother's aunt's guestroom... uh, anyway, eventually the guys came in (you know who!) along with that one human chick who hangs with them (I think), but then she got caught and the gang got caught while freeing her so they ordered us girls to go back to Splinter's. I guess they were in a panic since they tried to hide me under a bed... Mutant turtle, under a bed...yeeeeaaaaah... We eventually made it to the sewers and Splinter had a whole of dojo of...bishie MNT! ...I guess was on my mind for me to have this... unexpected fantasy...

Soooooo there goes another random journal. I'm doing a crazy circular dance trying to get PS CS installed, but in the meantime I'll try to at least get up what sketches I have. Aaaand I may work on a fic while I'm on this YYH... though I know I need to get back to my other stories... *sigh* I really need to write something funny.

Those moogles are lookin' mighty yummy right about now...

sez: WTF?! apparently lol

Or better at least...

Ah... my bit of insanity is over for the most part. Things are just sorta... stagnant here. Don't ask.


As for important stuff, I realized that DA holds the key to me being successful at life... but first I need to find the right lock on the right door. ...yeah, that totally made sense... Um, what I mean is that I really, really need to draw and write again. All the ideas I have would go to waste if I don't use them, and I want- no, we needs to show what we can do!

(We also learned how to do italics via html. hee hee)

Though I mostly get the feeling that everyone dismisses what I do as sorta pretty pictures (since we know our stories are ignored). Ugh. Blargh. Gezundheit. My head feels dizzy .

>.> Oooookie I'm totally rambling. 'at's the last time I try to make a journal entry after taking my meds late O_o. Dah... I wonder what I have to do to really make myself at home here? Whore myself out?...eh, I dun have any leather corsets... Oh, how about GETTING YOUR LINE ART DECENT??!!!

;_; I'm totally unable to use PSE and my tablet to even half their full potential. Waaahh....

Buuuuuut I am most definitely (if slowly!) getting stuff done! So far it's sketches of stuff related to KH ER, Slayers, and my half of the art trade wif . I'm really just trying to learn how to clean up my horrendous lineart; 'tis not going to well. Also I need to finish the other half of my FFVII winter ficlet... but man it's like 70 degrees outside! I hate the weather here... It did snow unexpectedly the other day (and we danced and rejoiced and had soup!) but melted the next. Neee....

So, on that note, I must ask: What the CRAP is up with fanfiction these days?!

Have you ed your today? ^^

Some stupid, stupid crap happened at the end of last week, and now my household is in the midst of the eye of the hurricane. My predictions came through, and now even my brother snapped. I'm...

I'm kinda scared.

So yaaaay, life just got worse.

As for DA updates, I'm working on a new ID, and any deviations or sketches I may post are that Mitori WP, a collab with a friend, and a KH sketch. If I can take a good picture, and if I actually do it, I may add a weird poster I have planned.

*sigh* you'd think by now I would realize these journals are obsolete...

On a brighter note, my niece turned 1 this past Friday.